Naming Names

What’s in a name? As one declamation piece I won’t forget says. I may say name means everything. It is the general representation of a person, an entity, a thing, a place etc. A powerful name could bring about happiness, fear, resentment, love and any emotion you can think of. Yes, that’s how a single mention of a name could influence one’s thinking. (Think of how Wizards fear Lord Voldemort's name in the Harry Potter series.)

Lately, my officemates have developed a knack in naming every gadget they have bought. I’ve known a laptop named Mishi, a camera named Iris and everything that have mattered to them have been given a name. Finding a name sometimes pose as a challenge. It must be unique, must have an impact and must be catchy. Cliches are not tolerated. Well, it’s kinda funny to think that way back then I was once a naming names fanatic.

I remembered my first cassette player was named R2D2, well I guess everyone knows that cute Star Wars character having a circular head. The cassette player was the first thing I’ve bought out of my own money. So it was really an important milestone for me that time. Everyone close to me knows its name. When the player finally gave up its life, everybody in the house reported to me sadly, “R2D2 is dead”. I was saddened and I only compensated myself thinking that it had already served its purpose.

Speaking of names, I fell in love first with my boyfriend’s name. Hehehe. Then he bought me this cute pink stuff toy and we named him Kaloi. In return I gave him a hotdog shaped pillow and obviously we named it Hotdog or sometimes Hotdoggie. We would always make up stories about them.

Kitty and Kaloi

Giving names to things dear to us gives us a kind of connection, a kind of closeness and a warm feel more than mere owning them. They become an integral part of our daily routine. We treat them as if they are humans, they feel and they tire and creating out of this world stories about them never fail to paint a smile on our face. Boasting their characteristics and features are always a topic in every group discussion.

They could be just simple things but them having a name really makes a lot of difference. Don't 'ya think?

Light On

At first there was blackness then the light was on. And there I saw again the face I am used seeing for the past one and a half year. He was there grinning from ear to ear expecting also to see me on the other end. I smiled the best I could to let him feel how happy I am seeing him again - so happy despite the fact that all I could see was his face beaming at me on the desktop's screen.

That was the scenario yesterday when my sweetie and I celebrated our one and a half years of commitment. Thanks to World Wide Web that I was able to celebrate it with him again. It’s been a while since we’ve parted ways and bridging the gap was never that easy. But at the end of the day, I would always reflect that maybe, just maybe, this is the best situation that we could have as of the moment.

The first day of the month had been very special for us. It started to get special one April Fool’s day when two foolish people realized foolish things and tried fooling one another. Hahaha. Kidding aside, that foolish day was one of the best days of my life.

I happen to read just right now an article about finding a perfect person written by J. M. Whitaker, it was a heartfelt article about a guy longing to find his perfect mate. Here are some excerpts from the article:

When you're out there looking for that perfect person keep these things in mind. People change, no matter how hard they try not to. As you grow older you mature, and with each new level of maturity come different ideas, different needs and wants. The person who was perfect for you at twenty could be the person you hate when you're thirty-five. You have to find someone who will grow with you, change with you, laugh with you and cry with you. A person who fills in where you lack, a person whom you can fill in for when they are lacking. But what about the perfect person, you ask? They do not exist. Even Malia was not perfect because the perfect girl in my dreams was supposed to stay with me.

There are no perfect people, only people who are perfect for each other.

The complementary rule is universal and holds true most with love. Complementing each other means having more room for self-actualization (a term I borrowed from a colleague). It means filling in the shortcomings of the other. It means fixing the loose ends. And this is what we are trying to work out. Given that we are both imperfect, we are just trying to be perfect for each other.

Distance may have made it harder for us to be perfect for each other but then in every space separating us lays a promise of getting closer. Just like David Cook’s song says, try to leave a light on when I’m gone (OT: DC rocks!).

Light On
By: David Cook

Never really said too much

Afraid it wouldn’t be enough

Just try to keep my spirits up

When there’s no point in grieving

Doesn’t matter anyway
Words could never make me stay

Words will never take my place

When you know I’m leaving

(Chorus)

Try to leave a light on when I’m gone

Something I rely on to get home

One I can feel at night

A naked light, a fire to keep me warm

Try to leave a light on when I’m gone

Even in the daylight, shine on

And when it’s late at night you can look inside

You won’t feel so alone

You know we’ve been down that road

What seems a thousand times before

My back to a closing door and my eyes to the seasons

That roll out underneath my heels

And you don’t know how bad it feels

To leave the only one that I have ever believed in

(Chorus)

Try to leave a light on when I’m gone

Something I rely on to get home

One I can feel at night

A naked light, a fire to keep me warm

Try to leave a light on when I’m gone

Even in the daylight, shine on

And when it’s late at night you can look inside

You won’t feel so alone

Sometimes it feels like we’ve run out of luck

When the signal keeps on breaking up

When the wires cross in my brain

You’ll start my heart again

When I come along

(Chorus)

Try to leave a light on when I’m gone

Something I rely on to get home

One I can feel at night

A naked light, a fire to keep me warm

Try to leave a light on when I’m gone

Even in the daylight, shine on

And when it’s late at night you can look inside

You won’t feel so alone

Agi and Mitoi

Ours is typically like everybody else’s love story. But what makes it special is simply because it is special.

Wednesday Madness

People's Park

I Miss You

What I miss about you?

Your smile, that never fails to make my heart melt

Your hands, always an assurance of being there at all times

Your eyes, that everytime you look at me I can't help but fall in love

Your voice, hearing it makes my day

Your care, the never ending sweetness and affection

Your ears, that patiently listen though I'm at loss for words

Your endearment, that every time you speak of it, I smile

What I miss about you?

You

Tuesdays Love Dose

People do meet in unexpected moments, in the most unexpected time and place. The determining factor of a lasting acquaintance that leads to friendship or relationship however is the perfect timing- the perfect transpiration of events.

I've met the love of my life in perfect timing I may say. The moment called for it, we jived and now we are together for more than a year. I didn't know when exactly did I fall for him but as I have recalled, I knew I wasn't feeling right when I am not with him. It seems like he was the one I asked God to have. Just in time he came and completely changed everything.

Once I would roll on my list the qualities I wish to have on a special someone. First, he should be intelligent. Second, he has too much respect on his mom because I've read in the past that being respectful to his mom would mean respect also to all the women he deal with. Third, he should be a good listener because I know I am the kind who always need to express my feelings in words. Fourth, he should be generous because I'm the woman you know (hehehe). And the list continues until I could no longer think of more qualities I've dreamed for my man. But when I met the same guy I was talking about, crash, my list was gone. Not that he didn't fit but I just realize then that there is no such thing as qualification when you're in love; no such thing as gauge of the qualities you expect of him. Because when you're in love, you'll find the things that lacks in you; your exact opposite, your complement.

Minutes before we will part ways (crybaby)

I have found him and I've never been this happy.

Far and Away

It's been months since we've been away and thinking of you keep smiles and sadness in my eyes. I would recall those days when we're together; riding a bus toward places we've never been before. The long hour trips weren't as boring as I have remembered. Seeing you beside me with the backdrop of picturesque places made me think how such good memories could last so short. Riding a bus was never the same again.

When I pass by the same street and fast food restaurant where we used to walk by and eat, melts my heart of the memories of laughter, fun and endless chitchats. How could I not miss you? Your name, the fast food restaurant and our stuff toy are all the same and that made quite a lot of difference. Walking through the same street and eating in the same place were never the same again.

Moving away from the very place we first met was a torture, thinking that things would completely change. But it could never equal the feeling when you decided to move away even farther than I did. Far enough that spells months of not seeing each other. I would recall that place where we started to go out, where we developed the mutual feeling of love, care and understanding. It was the place where we shared our first heartaches and our dreams, where we started to know who we are and what we wanted to become and where we learned that life could sometimes be funny at the same time sad, ironic at the same time lucky, choice at the same time chance, and bliss at the same time agony. Seeing the same place was never the same again.

Things changed. Left are the bittersweet recollections of the good old days. But someday, somehow, in a different time and place, we'll begin to cross the distance with feelings endured. By then hopefully, things will be the same again.